Vahllen

Holding on to the earthy smell. The time that settle the kettles won't tell. Pour me away and let it rot with regret. A little time with all that it meant had never seen the way. I wanna take you to the place that is more, before you can cast an opinion at all. Listen to our problems and we'll travel the shores. Bring me down, so long again. It didn't matter what we wanted to see you thought you saw something that looked just like me and you looked through me cause it's easy with lies and the ties that bring us to the stars. I don't wanna fake it, just take it all. be with me and count on us like friends. Even when we're far apart I'll hold u

If you walk in the moon's lunar luminosity, its wonderful light. You will feel it in you rising all night. Into the break of dawn where it flies along and soars around your head floating there like a thought bubble. You'll be feeling it right. You'll be walking down the hill with a kite like tail that tags along your magic and spirit filled with courage and fight. When you do it right, you can truly see it gleam peacefully out into the horizon of your down fall only to bounce you back up into the story of life. If you lose your way that's how you'll know that everything is just right. So make an attempt to tussle with trifles and snipe them d

She was looking at me with such eyes. It gave me chills to see the despise in her eyes. It lit my longing heart, and set my mind a flame to a bliss like plane. Staring at me with fear filled tears, I could see she loved me. She didn't want me to leave her here I know, but I had to go. The nearest road, I found was no way to show my love. I had to leave her alone so she could think. Bringing myself to get up was the hardest part, such soft skin and a gentle heart it sickened my stomach with butterflies. A lump in my throat tied a knot in my back as I had to break her gaze. I left in a calming still, a wind took to the tail of my coat as the d

I walked through the door and closed it behind me. I stood in a room with only space, and a single tree shaped like a chair. I took a seat and everything started to fly by. Time and light became a blur, a mesh of colors and gravity intensifying upon my body. I could feel my skin ripple and just as I saw everything at once it stopped. Aloft I drifted into this space and all along I hadn't notice the tree growing, griping, and wrapping it's limbs on me. I sat stuck in that living chair, yet felt uplifted by the lack of air as I started to dream into the abyss in which I had seen.

there's a depth to me so unseen I delve in to look inside and I realize how shallow the others around me are perhaps they hide behind flood gates or they truly are that light though I think that most are too afraid to hold their breath and dive to see what they fear and all the thoughts and personality traits they hide to see they're mistakes in that self formed reflecting pool perhaps they're afraid of all the beasts that could lay underneath in wait or they can't hold their breath long enough and the water stings their eyes maybe their afraid of being pulled under by the tides and drowning in what they hate and what they hide it

I don't pretend to know myself I know I'm a shell with a heart I am no angel, man, or devil if I ever existed at all it was before I came into the understanding that I am not all here I delve into a fantasy of madness and nonsense with and ill conceived notion of what's good and what's bad and what's gray I know that I've no idea what I think of anything I can look at the lines and corners of my ceiling and I see them move and wriggle as if I was underwater, under a pressure I can't control ever sinking with no thought process just a morbid husk who doesn't even have and urge or need to breathe I like to think I can make people happy

I don't deserve her love nor her beauty I don't deserve her at all For I keep making mistakes, and the closer we are the more my flaws show I'm not perfect in the least and have never claimed to be but she deserves so much more than me Just like everyone around, I try to help, love, and understand but when they try to grip my clammy hands they slip and fall time and time again whether it be my words or action no matter how hard I try I only end up hurting who I care about most I let them down  consistently Right when things are looking okay they fall harder than ever Either I have terrible luck or I was never meant to care or love

When they cut you up and gut you alive can you even cope with what they unleash inside I looked upon their faces while I was tied and not one of them had an ounce of sincerity or bravery in their eyes I can't keep running away from all that I hide when you see a speck of dust pondering on it's way can you even see it could you ever relate maybe I've just watched an hour pass by perhaps I could tune in to the media's tide or surf along the breezy skies and see what information and entertainment lay within Call me up a doctor I think I feel ill not mentally or physically but something won't let my thoughts or heart be still h

All I need is an idea and plan, a way to make a stand, and fly this ship away, steering from dismay into the clouds and outer reaches of the black sleek prisms of space where I can lay my head and dream my fears away while I tear through the rest of the insecurities that hold so firmly in place with false truths and open ended lies I could have sworn that if I were to blink I would have died and cried at my own funeral but it's okay for now cause my fingers are still moving writing these words that carry my weight oh so great are the giants we may face and duel these demons and cruelties but never forget how we can not only exterminate them b

You didn't deserve this I never deserved anything darkness hold me tight I feel the demons stop quitting Are you ever going to listen to me You're an idiot God you're oblivious I love you stop drowning jeez can't you ever pull your self up why is it always me shut up just shut up I'm never going to be successful stop trying to be everyone's friend you're so stupid why don't you do something useful with your writings get a job you need to stop lying around get up and ho out are you gong to be here forever why don't you try I'm never going to finish anything I start stop feeling ad there are others who have it worse you'