Leth

She was looking at me with such eyes.
It gave me chills to see the despise in her eyes.
It lit my longing heart, and set my mind a flame to a bliss like plane.
Staring at me with fear filled tears, I could see she loved me.
She didn't want me to leave her here I know, but I had to go.
The nearest road, I found was no way to show my love. I had to leave her alone so she could think.
Bringing myself to get up was the hardest part, such soft skin and a gentle heart it sickened my stomach with butterflies. A lump in my throat tied a knot in my back as I had to break her gaze. I left in a calming still, a wind took to the tail of my coat as the door creaked open. I thought I heard her say those words that still repeat in my head. "Don't do this to me. Why do you have to hurt me?" and of course her pleas for mercy and help only made me have to struggle with my feeling more. Those ones she batted them around like a cat toy. Now she's hanging in there with a whispered voice and an unblinking remorse. Nails of pain dig deep into her brain, those words I left must sting. So I made it as quick as I could, but there was a rising scent in the air as I tried to explain my actions. One that seemed a bit of a guilty pleasure, though it had to be done. I just couldn't take the stress, I didn't have it in me to resist.

She's hanging out there in that hotel room in some kind of bloody mess. I had to go as much as I wanted to enjoy her company one last time. I had watched her grow resentful and cold for long enough. The crimson lips that I won't ever again touch. A gem that I had ground down into sand. I'm sorry for our losses of one another, I hope you can forgive and understand, but the rope of convictions and lies bind you there with a deathly breath of cool winter's air.