Prince of sorrow and the King of Disaster

I don't deserve her love nor her beauty
I don't deserve her at all
For I keep making mistakes, and the closer we are the more my flaws show
I'm not perfect in the least and have never claimed to be
but she deserves so much more than me
Just like everyone around, I try to help, love, and understand
but when they try to grip my clammy hands they slip and fall time and time again

whether it be my words or action
no matter how hard I try I only end up hurting who I care about most
I let them down  consistently
Right when things are looking okay they fall harder than ever
Either I have terrible luck
or I was never meant to care or love others

I'm a walking disaster so it seems
it feels like a curse, a burden I bare
and it hurts me more than anything to see others in pain
and especially so
when I know
that I'm the one to have caused it